Letter #4- Impossible

Dear Daddy,
I've been trying, you know I have. But I can't go on like this. I can't go on missing you this badly everyday for the rest of my life. In my dreams you hold me like you used to and I find relief. But when my eyes open and I breathe in my heart aches like I didn't know it could. I feel like everyday I get better and worse. Everyday hurts more on the inside, but looks better on the outside. I'm such a fraud.
I just want you to be here again. Right now. Please.
Just to see you. To see your face. I wanna be your little girl again.
I just can't go on like this.
And everyday pulls me further and further away from the time when you were alive.
I miss you.
Your daughter.